After our class 'perspectives in missions' I feel like I have more of an idea on what to expect. I feel like the class has prepared me more for the amount of impact short term missions doesn't have on others and the idea that if my goal and main purpose of the mission is to impact others the experience be unsuccessful because in the class we learned that short term missions impacts the individuals serving more as thy serve with a servant heart and are more vulnerability to God dpi g work in them. Overall for my upcoming missions trip I feel as though the class made me think a lot more about the realities of what we are going to see while serving. Due to this I have an anticipation and expectancy that God is going to do a lot of sweet things I'm our group. I also believe that through us he is going to work some pretty sweet things. As a group I am super stoked to see the work that God does to bring us together. Overall for my upcoming missions trip I have very little idea on what to expect and that scares me a lot. I'm scared to see the realities of the way people are living due to various circumstances. I feel like overall there nothing that I can truly do to prepare myself.
I am most anticipating serving at New Beginnings church because I am excited to serve teenagers and be an example of God to the through showing them that they are worthy of love. I'm excited and anticipating this opportunity because I know that many New beginnings youth are sponsored to come to camp in the summer so I am very excited to build a connection with a lot of them before the summer so that those who attend camp in the summer already know someone who's there, who cares about them and who they can talk to. This opportunity is also exciting because the pastor is doing a lot of work to adapt opportunities to skills that we each have in the group. While at potters place I am anticipating the opportunity to share my testimony and a message because though it scares me a lot I am able to trust in Gods ability to use the words I speak to impact others hearts. Finally another aspect of this trip that I am anticipating is the time that we as a Vancouver team get to spend together in devotion in the morning and processing in the evening because I feel that god is going to bring our group together so tightly and it excited me because I feel like we have an incredible team.
I think that my greatest challenge on this trip will be in processing what I am experiencing and seeing with God and with others. I feel like this will be my greatest challenge because a lot of the time I like to try and solve my life issues on my own from doing this I've learned that all that does is hurt myself more. So processing what I'm seeing and experiencing with others scares me a lot because I know personally for myself that I'm going to have to force myself to do it even when I feel super uncomfortable. leading up to the trip I've been trying to pray about that aspect and praying that God would help me overcome the fear that I have so that I don't get emotionally drained while on the missions trip. So preparing to overcome this I have doesn't time in prayer and journaling however there is not much more that I can do to prepare myself. When the time comes to process what I'm seeing I know that I can not not talk about it. This means that I'm going to have to ignore the fear and just do it so that I can continue to serve with all my heart and soul without burning out.
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